As anyone with BPD will be able to tell you, the emotions can be deep, sudden and intense. This picture represents the a feeling of sadness, despair, emptiness and loneliness so deep and overwhelming that I could only describe it as desolation.
In the sky are written all of the negative thoughts that I was being flooded with whilst experiencing this episode. I deliberately obscured them so they could never be read (I don’t even know what they say) because the creation of this picture was an outpouring of pain, and I did not want to preserve those negative thoughts about myself, as to me this would make them feel real. Rather, I wanted to get them out and then wash them away. And in this way, this picture felt very healing.
Art Journal Sketch Series. Watercolour Pencil on Paper. Copyright Katy Matilda Neo, June 2016.