This piece is about the concept of a “self” and learning that I have one. An experience perhaps inconceivable to the vast majority. An exhausting, fascinating, terrifying and enveloping experience, through which I am learning that the world is not necessarily as I have always thought it was, and that when one has a “self” it is surrounded by boundaries. These are things that are not walls, but are invisible barriers that define the person as an individual entity separate from his or her surroundings. While most people develop these unconsciously during childhood, for a small minority of people, myself included, this process is disrupted, resulting in the symptoms of identity disturbance associated with mental health problems such as Borderline Personality Disorder, Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Dissociative Identity disorder, amongst other mood and personality disorders.